This is a video I am very proud of, since it took a lot of effort in planning, filming and editing; but besides the technical effort put into it there was also a lot of emotion from my part. This video is not trying to portray a woman in a leotard dancing and being sexual for no reason, rather than the embodiment of a woman who spends her days living up to the standards of the society (being beautiful) but in the end she is still left empty, looking for something she cannot find.
I’ve heard a lot of criticism and controversial opinions about it, including the words “awfully sexy” and “provocative”. I initially got offended and upset that people could not appreciate and recognise my efforts and my artistic side. I was even told that I might lose my chance of getting into an Ivy League because of that video, or lose a job. After careful thinking I came to the conclusion that I wasn’t offended by the people saying those things to me. I was offended by the double-standards set by the society. The fact that no-one would bat an eye if i was dancing on the beach with nothing but a revealing bikini but it’s too offensive wearing a leotard, or biting your lips. I am angry that women are forced to suppress their sexuality, as if it is something bad and offensive. Especially when it comes to art.
This video was an attempt to share my emotions with the world, not through words, but through art, and we all know very well that an equivalent video by a male would not cause ANY controversy whatsoever. If i’m going to lose opportunities in my life because people cannot accept who I am then so be it. I am proud of my body, I am proud of my art, and I am proud of my personality, so I don’t want to be a part of a society stuck in the past.